Sabar

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Bismillahiraahmanirrahim..

These few weeks are the most hectic week for me and my classmates. (well at least for me). When there are times I want to stop everything and sleep all the time. Plus when doing group work, and other group mates were busy. ye laa bukan salah dia pun nak busy. tapi still it affects our group work. There are times I really want to give up. Penat nyaaa buat kerja oi. Penatnya belajar. Penatnya layan kerenah manusia and more more keluhan. Mungkin ada kekosongan part aku dengan tuhan. So he pause my works and all. and there are timess  I want to burst out. Haih.. Nabilah Sabar,

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Harini hari yang agak sentimental sikit. Sebab harini kami sambut kedatangan adik adik July untuk program foundation at our uni. At the same day sepupu aku masuk KYUEM, a place where I really want to go. Dia dapat scholar Felda(THE one that I fail at the  last stage, ahh aku tak move on lagi). Dah jadi satu ritual untuk aku setiap kali intake student baru untuk aku perhatikan gelagat manusia. Bukan lah pelajar yang aku perhatikan tapi parents mereka. I really look at their face deeply. Ada satu suara dalam hati aku bersuara. Seolah olah baca apa yang ada dalam hati hati parents tu. We don't know the struggle that the parents face. Duit untuk bayar yuran, expenses untuk datang hantar anak, expenses untuk beli kelengkapan anak-anak, duit untuk belanja anak,buku lagi, makan cukup ke.Selesa ke duduk kat bilik, roomate baik ke, kawan kawan macam mana, boleh ke belajar jauh jauh dengan keluarga, kelas macam mana,cukup makan ke nanti and paling penting "sunyi lah rumah sorang dah belajar jauh". Sedih. Tadi masa tolong sorang pelajar bawak barang dia naik bilik, masa nak masuk rumah tiba tiba mak dia jatuh tersungkur depan pintu, penat sangat agaknya ye laa bilik atas sekali dengan tangan sarat dengan barang anak. Masa tu ya Allah luluhnya hati tengok.Bayangkan kalau ibu yang jatuh tersungkur bawak barang aku. Nasib baik masa tu ada orang yang tangan kosong boleh tolong angkat makcik tu. To that extend pengorbanan seorang mak. Belum cerita yang jalan jauh nak angkut barang anak masuk bilik. aku dah pesan bawak kereta masuk, tapi sebab mak cik ni gigih nak berjalan, sanggup berpanas jalan jauh dengan tangan penuh barang anak. Aku nak tolong tapi budak tu lelaki dan aku tak boleh masuk block lelaki. Haih kalau cerita kisah yang aku tengok harini memang this entry not gonna stop. So I decided to stop nanti aku sedih ingat ibu abah. Guys, aku pesan, ingatlah parents kita. Their sacrifices is really beyond human capability (over kau aku punya analogy). No matter how people talk bad about them, tak kesahlaaa kerja apa pun parents kita, keep on making doa for them.


regards,
homesick.

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