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Well just a random thoughts.. If doing a personality test, I would say I am a leader. Some leaders are born. (Born to lead) Somehow I believe leaders are trained. How they trained? Through living experiences, courses, instincts,  and more. I used love to lead before. I love to organise,giving ideas, take the leading role, it just came naturally without been asked. Well probably I got sense on organise things. As I grow up,  I just realize I lost interest on taking a leading role. Probably because of the big responsibility(amanah) and most important things PEOPLE. People make me lost interest to be a leader. Plus the inferiority in me increases as I grow up. Probably when people are just showing their superiority in front me. I am not interested to compete nor showing superiority to other. Nah, not my forte. I just realize I don't like deal with people. People are so unpredictable. It sucks. Now I like to sit at the corner and observe. If I am not interested, I am just back o...

Assalamualaikum and hi readers. this post might be a bit emotional, I know I am in emotional condition rn. But I still want to write because someday, when I read this, I'll remember why  I wrote this entry. Hopefully I think back before I make decision. to be frank, it is about marriage. I saw a lot of broken heart people around me because of marriage. I know, mesti sebab tu ujian. But why hurt them if you love them. Kalau kawin nak masa senang je, susah lah. Bila masa susah kau nak tinggalkan, lupa diri kau yang decide untuk terima, end up you give up with the relationship.Siapa janji kan kesenangan seumur hidup. Kalau kawin nak hidup mewah, stop dreaming people, ekonomi Malaysia orang tak boleh jangka apa lagi nasib rumah tangga kau. In any way Allah boleh uji. Somehow talking bout marriage is a nightmare to me. Macam trauma pun ada. Risking my life to another heart broken world. Marriage should be beautiful if you practice Islam in it.

I couldn't describe how happy I am to have lots of beautiful soul around. Thank you people for living. Thank you Allah for create them for me and let their presence in my life. everyday is a happy day. Though we are having hard time, they really know how to fixed everything back. Thanks for the birthday present, the perfume, the cakes, the scented aroma(my room smells like lovely lace now, and I love it!) , the foods, all prayers and the drawings. Thanks everyone for all your love!! Thank you. I owe you guys a lot of happiness. Thanks for lending ears for me to rant, thanks for lending your shoulder for me to lean on, thanks for fulfilling everything that I had craving for. Thanks for let me feel how to have a very lovely best friend. Thanks for give me chances to have friends. Thanks for everyone's love

Ya Allah seandainya hati hambamu ini meletakkan pengharapannya kepada selain Mu, Berikanlah peringatan kepadanya bahawa Engkau lah Pemilik sekalian alam. Seandainya hati hambamu ini meletakkan harapannya kepada sesuatu bukan milikknya, Ingatkanlah dia bahawasanya Engkau Maha mengetahui Seandainya hati hambamu ini runsing dan risau akan takdirnya, ingatkanlah dia bahawa rezeki, ajal maut dan jodoh itu urusan Mu. All I want is just a peace of mind and hearts. -Cerita minggu ni: ada satu hari aku rasa sangat kecewa. Rasa nak marah sangat. Tapi tak tahu kat mana nak zahirkan. Kalau marahkan manusia nanti putus silaturrahim. Nak marahkan hati, alahai hati tu Allah yang pimpin.Marahkan diri sendiri je lah, sebab tak pandai jaga hati sendiri. Jadi aku telan semua. Kalau luah, orang lain salah hadam. Jadi aku decide untuk hadam sampai padam. Tapi sakit! Susah lah, rumit!  Lepastu aku decide untuk lupakan je marah dan kecewa tu.  harap harap berhasil! 

adjective 1. sad or depressed from a longing for  home  or family while away from them for a long time.

"Nak berjaya kan?Kena lah berusaha!"bisik hati...  Sabar... Kejayaan tak datang bergolek 

Universiti of Nottingham, Semenyih Went there during early of our semester break for National Chemical Engineering Symposium. I was in Process Plant Design competition with my group member :Yuga,Beshr,Susen and Lim. Alhamdulillah they are very good, each of us have our unique contribution towards the team and our project. Though we put everything at very last minute, brainwashed by our supervisors and hampir gave up at the last minute , stay up late every night, meeting every day and night, makan pun gilir-gilir untuk siapkan project kat cafe bangun pagi untuk meet up and sambung project, received sudden call from supervisor for a meeting and presevere-nt-ly we just follow our supervisor suggestion and we did it! We got second place for our category. Our hardwork paid off. The NACES was awesome. A place where I learnt a lot about Chemical Engineer. People from industry come and give a public lecture, the debate session was awesome, other team in Process Plant Design was awesome. The...