shout it out

Well just a random thoughts.. If doing a personality test, I would say I am a leader. Some leaders are born. (Born to lead) Somehow I believe leaders are trained. How they trained? Through living experiences, courses, instincts,  and more. I used love to lead before. I love to organise,giving ideas, take the leading role, it just came naturally without been asked. Well probably I got sense on organise things. As I grow up,  I just realize I lost interest on taking a leading role. Probably because of the big responsibility(amanah) and most important things PEOPLE. People make me lost interest to be a leader. Plus the inferiority in me increases as I grow up. Probably when people are just showing their superiority in front me. I am not interested to compete nor showing superiority to other. Nah, not my forte. I just realize I don't like deal with people. People are so unpredictable. It sucks. Now I like to sit at the corner and observe. If I am not interested, I am just back o...

Assalamualaikum and hi readers. this post might be a bit emotional, I know I am in emotional condition rn. But I still want to write because someday, when I read this, I'll remember why  I wrote this entry. Hopefully I think back before I make decision. to be frank, it is about marriage. I saw a lot of broken heart people around me because of marriage. I know, mesti sebab tu ujian. But why hurt them if you love them. Kalau kawin nak masa senang je, susah lah. Bila masa susah kau nak tinggalkan, lupa diri kau yang decide untuk terima, end up you give up with the relationship.Siapa janji kan kesenangan seumur hidup. Kalau kawin nak hidup mewah, stop dreaming people, ekonomi Malaysia orang tak boleh jangka apa lagi nasib rumah tangga kau. In any way Allah boleh uji. Somehow talking bout marriage is a nightmare to me. Macam trauma pun ada. Risking my life to another heart broken world. Marriage should be beautiful if you practice Islam in it.

I couldn't describe how happy I am to have lots of beautiful soul around. Thank you people for living. Thank you Allah for create them for me and let their presence in my life. everyday is a happy day. Though we are having hard time, they really know how to fixed everything back. Thanks for the birthday present, the perfume, the cakes, the scented aroma(my room smells like lovely lace now, and I love it!) , the foods, all prayers and the drawings. Thanks everyone for all your love!! Thank you. I owe you guys a lot of happiness. Thanks for lending ears for me to rant, thanks for lending your shoulder for me to lean on, thanks for fulfilling everything that I had craving for. Thanks for let me feel how to have a very lovely best friend. Thanks for give me chances to have friends. Thanks for everyone's love